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I started my morning listening to today's podcast from Andrew Wommack. There was a scripture that the woman giving her and her husband's testimony of his healing quoted and it hit home for me:

John 14:1: Let not your heart be troubled: you believe in God, believe also in me.

And then, as I was updating my Facebook status like the Facebook-aholic that I am with that scripture, the Lord brought 2 others to my heart that also very much apply to where I am in my life and walk:

Galatians 6:9: Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.

Hebrews 10:35-36: So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised.

I have been allowing my heart to be troubled - I've been going so far as to question my salvation - asking myself, 'Do you REALLY love God?' - and I do grow weary... and usually, when I'm in these types of places, I tend to wallow in it instead of immediately praying and telling God where I am and how I FEEL and asking Him to show me the truth. I do just what the Bible says NOT to do - I sit and THINK about ALL the things that I'm worried about, why I'm worried about them, how I am worried they will turn out.... and then I wonder why I struggle with anxiety. I can't count the number of times I have been told, 'It's not how you feel, it's what you know.' ... Hearing that makes me want to scream... probably b/c I know it's true... and b/c I am driven by my emotions - I think a lot of women are. This has been one of the hardest things I've had to accept and that I CONTINUE to have to work on daily... letting my faith be what guides me and not me emotions. Ugh. Well, I do love God. . . and I know God loves me...(even despite myself). And THANK GOD He still loves me in spite of all the reasons there are not to... He is a good God.

On a lighter note, Pops seems to be doing better today... I'm going to let him have until Friday on his antibiotics before I decide what we are going to have our regular vet do. He needs to have xrays of his heart for sure... possibly his lungs also - but I'm hoping the medication he's on will clear up the cough he's developed. And, obviously, since this is all b/c of an infection in his gums - we're going to have to have his teeth cleaned again. Please continue to pray for his speedy recovery.

Have a good night!